Starry..Starry Nite
I know it's easy for other people to say,"Don't worry, be happy". Well, for me it doesn't that easy at all. Still, I have to learn accepting what people say and want from me. I have to do this..do that. Please...just get out of my life. Just ignore me for once, I'm so sick to be controlled.
Anyway, my mood isn't that good aswell. So easy to get upset, so easy to cut just for a little thing. Ah..I just try to be happy in my own way. Not with what people said or thought. I become more selfish in some way. But, maybe that's the way I handle my loneliness here.
I'm really looking forward to get a good result from my interview last month. Please, give me an excuse to wake up in the morning with a proper purpose of the day. At least, Dunc called me more often nowadays. It's the only thing that can cheer me up. Gosh, miss him too much. Ah, I'm doing yoga again now. Hope it could bring my balance back. The meditation before go to bed is really help me to relax. I still prefer pilates actually, but it's hard to do it here. So, yoga will do.
I was so bored today, like usual, then luckily my girlfriends came and save my nite. We went out, had dinner, then played pool. I had some argument with my mum..again! I really don't know what should I do and say everytime it happen. I tried so hard to control myself to not bite her head off, be calm even it was never work. Oh..Mama,I tried so hard to understand you but why you never stop fighting me back.
I don't know what else to write. Everybody has their own problems,rite? And I guess, no matter how bad it is, there must be a way to solve it. I've been shared the feelings with my girlfriends and we all have a problem to be solved. And all I can say was, "We'll be okay,Girls. When things turn not the way we want, we still have each others."
Nite...nite,Surabaya. Let's sleep tight and forget all the tears.
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